Though I am not Slavic,
yet I find I am Bohemian:
a brother of the gypsies
who seek their joy of existence
under the blue sky and on an open road.
Someone has made me a tinker and a weaver,
knocking together the little wordies,
worpling and wooing,
the soundzies, listening for the ting.
Ah, weaving and unweaving
the dark and rutilant soul fabrics:
both the wind-sung and worm-spun stuff
of withering illusions, and that frail fabric
which supports stars in their burn.
*
I had a God once: but he killed himself
for the love of God and me...
by lifting my body in his enigmatic hands
and dropping me from a great height.
I was ripe for it, like a melon
too sweet, and the catastrophe was
a pure, perfidious act.
Then out of the broken shell of me burst
a Wild God I knew at once was true!:
Her eyes were luminous, diaphanous windows
of blue, and in the rain shower folds
of her dress birds swirled alive with singing.
And she kissed me...
and gathered my little pool of sorrows
in her cupped hands to carry them
stealthily to that whimsical gardener
who dances with the eternally young.
And the ancient, crick-crackety man
peered into the waters
and saw his own eyes, then laughed
until he wept tears into her palms.
And the dark pool trembled
like August wheat fields, lightening
and weaving yellow in the wind of their love.
So they laughed breath upon me
until everything glowed and life blew.
*
It's the darker bodkin of His finger
piecing thick, titular cloth
laid over my heavy bones
that lets a white stream flood through:
the thin pale thread
as true as concrete silence:
a speaking eloquence of nothing...
that splays the heart and body
center by flaming center,
until the loins and mind
are shook together in ecstasy.
*
And I am happy, a gypsy child
of the Wild God: stone dead,
yet quick, green-growing—
a Nothing alive!
Word definitions:
worpling: an invented word
rutilant: glowing, gleaming, glittering
enigmatic: perplexing, baffling
perfidious: the deliberate breaking of faith,
the betrayal of trust
bodkin: a pointed instrument for making holes
in cloth
titular: existing only in title; in name only.